I love wordsmithery, shopping for words in the rich aisles of the English language, meshing and moshing and molding them together to paint pictures vernacular and spectacular. And like Ozymandius and his ill-fated stone monument to greatness, I dream that my words will live on when I’m gone. Because I’m all delusional and stuff, too….
About a week ago, I penned a quick blurb and posted it as my Facebook status. A few minutes later, a friend commented and copied it for her status. It’s an awesome feeling, knowing that something you wrote resonated with a fellow traveller on this journey. Another reposted, then another, and soon I was seeing people comment on their postings, saying things like “I like this—I’m going to copy and post it, too!”
Somewhere along the way, as I saw my words posted and reposted, taking on a life of their own, reaching people I never could have reached on my own, a thought crossed my mind.
“I’m not getting the credit for this.”
Admitting that makes me cringe. While a whole community bound together by nothing more than a thread that runs through an extra chromosome in our children saw truth and spread truth, I started pouting that my by-line wasn’t attached to it. Nevermind the fact that somewhere in the wild word, someone might read those words and be changed by them. That person would never realize that it was MY words that changed them.
I related this story to my family today at the lunch table. I asked them if they could identify the sin behind my emotions, and before I had the “-n” tacked on to the end of “si-” Ethan blurted out “PRIDE!”
Ah, there it was, obvious even to a 10 year old. Pride, we learned this past week, is the root of all contention. The elevation of self-interest over common good. Not to say that my words were such an enormous, world changing contribution to the common good. But boy, did I act as if they were. God’s gift to Facebook.
I’m not going to post the post-in-question here. Believe me, I want to. I toyed with the idea of starting out this post with the quote-in-question. But I’m not going to. Call it an exercise in exorcising the spirit of pride.
A few days later, it happened again. Only this time, the quote was something I’d written a few months back, recirculating among the Facebook community. And here it was, being posted and commented on and reposted. I felt that familiar monster clawing through into my consciousness. And I stopped myself. What does it matter whether anyone knows whose words those are? Isn’t it wonderful that I am part of this community of wonderful people who strive to empower each other in the fight for truth? Isn’t the far greater issue that someone might read one of these posts and see Down syndrome in a different, more truthful light?
It’s been a week of growing for me, to be sure. (And not just because I’ve fallen off of my diet and eaten an entire loaf of homemade bread and 3 boxes of Triscuits and 1/2 a bottle of Shiraz this week. Tomorrow’s another day….) I’m honored that someone saw promise and hope and truth in my words, and that rather than tossing them into the FB dust-bin that is the “older post” page, they shared them. That is something real. It doesn’t matter whether I get any credit for it.
At least, not until I’m a published author with an agent and an editor and an option deal. Then I’m pretty sure it’ll be copyright infringement….
